Tuesday, January 09, 1990
Part 13 : The first dateAlmost 3 weeks had passed since that fateful day. This were the happy times, knowing there was someone caring for me really made each day great. Unfortunately, being my first relationship, I wasn't really the best of boyfriends. all we did each day was sms, in sch it was sms, at home in was sms, I was too darn shy and scared to call her ; worried whether my call would be at such a bad time, bothering her, embarassed to talk to her in school, asking how her night was, whether she dreamt a dream of me, i did. she was constantly on my mind yet i didnt know how to show her. Afraid of ridicule and teasing from my friends, all we had was a long distance relationship, ya the distance between my handphone and hers. Each time our eyes met, full of passion love, how I wish she could see the remorse and guilt deep in my eyes.
After our mid year exams, I finally found the courage to ask Torrence out, she reponded to my request positively It was friday, the last day of the week, the day of our first date. We exchange cheeky looks everytime we met, it served as a gentle reminder of the fun we would have later. finally the last bell. After a quick lunch , i ran back to class where i knew she was waiting patiently for me. Denise was in the class, so was Torrence. Denise gave us cheeky smile, we smiled back politely and strolled oout of class to the bustop. At this time, thousand of thoughts were racing through my mind, what should I talk about , the continous silience was unnerving, then it broke, thankfully.
"What are we watching Samuel ? " said Torrence.
"Erm. . . . . do you have any recomendations ? I am easy . " I replied .
Being such nice people , we continued our gentleman's conversation till we boarded the bus. It was pretty crowded, and i stood close to her, wondering whether she could her the loud thumping of my heart. At the next stop, just as the back door of the bus opened up, we saw our classmates. We were looking superbly suspicious to them . thank god the bus moved on, I didnt know how to handle the cheeky stares from my class mates. As Torrence sat down on the empty sit, she offered to take my books. That small action was filled with love and care. Our eyes met once again, this time it stayed for a while............
We carried on with our sweet conversations all the way to the movie theatre. Suprisingly we saw very little people from our school, but whose complaining. Just then, we spotted Rayner, Yan and Si Chuan. I had spoke too soon. Torrence and I were both praying that they hadn't seen us yet. Soon we arrived that the movie theatre, and guess what, being the "great" boyfriend I was , I picked the movie " Fed-up Gals" . Of all the shows to watch on a first date, i chose a chick flick. To compound things, Rayner and the rest were in the same theatre as us. In the darkenss of the cinema, everything changed. I became more relaxed. We kept exhanging looks. Looking back , I think i saw more of Torrence's face then the show. Halfway throught the movie, Torrence was starting to feel cold and she didn't bring a jacket. I couldn't bare to see her suffer. I took her hands , placed them in mine, trying to warm them up by rubbing them and breathing my warm breathe unto them. I dared not look up, but I could sense that she appreciated it. After a minute or so, I let go of her hands. Feeling extremely pleased with myself. Then we held hands. It was a weird feeling, but it was nice.
After the movie we walked around the mall, spending time together, possibly making up for time lost in school, time lost to my timid behavior. As we were walking, my left arm dug into my bag and took out the present i had prepared the night before.
"Here's something for you, something for you to remember this day by. " Said I .
It may have been a $3.90 dog handphone holder from POPULAR, but it gave her so much joy, which i was thankful for. Torrence had to leave early . Darn it , I wanted to take a neoprint with her, something to remember our first day by, but since she was in a rush, I gave it a miss. At the interchange, just as we were about to board the bus, I realised I had left my wallet in the cinema. Torrence offered to accompany me back to find it, but i didn't want her to be late, so I told her to go. The consequence of my carelessness was, I missed the chance to send Torrence home.
It was a sad end to such a beautiful and seemingly perfect day. But the day's activities had left me thinking ........
x penned @ 11:48 AM